and to make it worse, it’s mostly my fault, i’ve been such a horrible friend recently to her, that I don’t blame her if she never speaks to me again…..it’s just so hard to be best friends with someone that all your other friends hate, because you end up having to choose when you don’t want to have to make a decision at all, and I know it makes her feel bad when I hang out with people that she knows doesn’t like her because I have been in that situation, and I of all people should know better then to have done it. I can’t believe I did it either. I hurt one of the few people that knew me for me, that I could tell anything to, and I’m kicking myself in the butt for it, I should suffer the consequences, but I don’t want to. I just want this horrible feeling to go away, this is tearing me up on the inside. so tomarrow I’m going to try and fix this, and I’m going to try and fix this without crying. note to self: don’t wear masscara tomarrow.